Another long hiatus, and I'm back here once again. Guess nobody bothers to check anymore.

You can call me an escapist, but I'm much too troubled to think right now. Past 5mths have been like a roller coaster ride.. Really happy times, and really sad periods.. I thought my life would settle down after BMT, realized I was wrong. To be honest, I have absolutely no clue what has gone wrong in my life, I just know that it's going down the drain. (like what else's new?)

I love you. I know I do. I try not to think too much abt it, but no matter what I'm still conscious of my feelings. You don't believe it, what can I do? There's so much proving to do. I don't want to do it anymore.. I don't dare look through the all stuff you've given me, don't dare to look at our photos, I don't want to cry. You think I'm happy with my life now? No I'm not. You know I'm a master at masking my emotions. Right now, I'm just gonna let time just pass by, and see how things go.

Falling in love with u was not my mistake, giving u false hope for the future was. All those talk about marriage and stuff, I meant them, but now it all seems like false hopes for you, pipe dreams that will never come true.. I was too naive, I sincerely apologize for that. It's probably too late for that now, but I'm saying it nevertheless.

I am me.
Livestrong, treasure every moment
Don't leave space for regrets
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